Jessie I hardly knew ye

An online friend said they wanted to see what I looked like, who they were talking too. The remark made me think 'gee, I'd like to know who they are talking to too.' Everyone has poisonous thoughts that can kill their joy. We distance ourselves from the pain and the spot eventually calluses over. As with any callus, sometimes it catches and rips and the pain blooms anew. A casual remark from my husband caught a callus and soon after my friend said what they said in the first sentence opened the wound and pain bloomed. I've cut myself off for so long I didn't know I'd done it. I don't have kids so the family stories that I know will die with me unless I blog it and let it float in the internet river of flotsam. Some of the stories will be amusing some not and I'm feeling maudlin so this blog will probably not be read which doesn't matter. I'm just trying to get things out of my swamp of a brain.